|dear earth by katie daisy|
(one of those 'it seemed like a good idea at the time' kind of decisions I still make sometimes decades later - ugh)
Within a few seconds I was lying on the ground flat on my back and unable to breathe.
I could hear my grandmother through the kitchen window just a few feet away and I wanted to call out to her but couldn't speak.
Just as I was starting to really panic I heard a man's voice say "blow" ... and I did.
(I somehow knew it was my grandfather's voice although he'd died a few weeks before I was born)
I hadn't had the wind knocked out of me as much as into me - what I needed to do was exhale.
I have felt like this for the last few days - I think most of us have.
This powerful ending to this powerful time period designed to wake us the hell up - has done its job.
We are all awake now.
Tomorrow we have the much hyped Mayan calender end-date of 12/21/12.
As an armchair astrologer
(when I can wrestle my armchair away from Olive, who has spent the last few weeks dangling from it, head hanging dangerously close to the heater, ignoring the usual Christmas chaos in the studio - next year I'm getting her one of those wrist tape dispensers - if she can work her way into a bin of blue buffalo with her toenail, she can certainly work one of those)
I can tell you that there is an interesting astrological pattern that culminates this week - it's a test of faith, a fork in the road, a road toward a more spiritually enlightened future - a time of choice - a time of enlightenment.
(ie more light getting in - a lot more light actually).
Enlightenment isn't something we have to work at. It's something we choose in the moment when we choose love (soul) over fear (ego) - we either choose it or we don't - we don't have to work toward it - we don't have to do anything other than choose ....
(astrologically speaking this period is also the great remembering - why we are here, where we are from - we are all going to have access to a lot more information; nothing will be able to hide anymore - we also see the rise of the feminine and secrets being brought to light since there will be no more dark corners to hide in)
We were born to do this. We are here at this time in this planet's history to build a new world. The world (as we know it) is ending. The new one is up to us. We just have to commit. When we commit, energy is unleashed. Signs follow commitment. We will know what to do when we need to know.
(and this "signs follow commitment" thing is why when we are trying to make a decision and we are looking for signs to tell us what to do the signs just don't come - we have to commit first - this is a free will universe after all, we decide)
We don't get to have our dream come true until we have our dream.
What kind of world are we dreaming of? Some believe this change will happen in a moment. Maybe. It only takes a moment for a person to be broken open - for more light to be able to enter. There are certainly moments in our personal histories after which nothing is the same and the planet is no different.
When I look ahead to the full moon on the 28th though it looks like our faith is heavily tested so maybe this shift does not happen in a moment, at least not in a totally obvious way (or maybe the testing is for those of us heavily invested in more fear-based religious teachings). Then Saturn sextiles Pluto and demands "patience".
This transformation is slow but thorough; maybe there is no quick fix but no stone will be left unturned.
We change the world by changing ourselves. We change the world by choosing love over fear. We simply choose ... again and again ...
There is a live global webcast on Birth2012 and information on The Shift. Everything inside me is telling me that this Shift is the real deal - maybe some of you are resonating with this, too.
Anything we can do right now to focus on what we do want - love, joy, peace - helps to anchor in this energy. Throw a party. Smile (maybe not that big old crazy smiles where we show our gums and everything). Laugh- laughter is very powerful stuff. Whatever we love to do - this would be a good time to do it.
(also the 12/28 full moon is an 'oak tree' moon - the oak tree symbolizes strength, tolerance, eternity and wisdom - the tree of winter - the fruit of the oak tree is mistletoe so it wouldn't hurt to have a little in our homes now - also gives us a good reason to plant some smooches on those who wander underneath)